What else could she be feeling other than a heartbreak? I did not know. She had only told me about her heartbreak. Nothing else.
But that was reasonable. Heartbreak is its own set of feelings. A complex concoction of a particular kind of anxiety mixed with a seemingly unsurmountable melancholy. I did not ask her to verify my hypothesis about the nature of heartbreaks in general. It would have been rude.
“Sometimes I don’t think it’s my problem,” she said.
“What do you mean?”
“Because we have such rubbish education, I want to blame the government that made the both of us go abroad,” she opined. “I want to do a julus to protest this.”
I thought to myself, “What can a julus do in a country where andolans become an intimate part of deep history in merely a matter of a few days?”
“I know what you are thinking,” she said.
sisi pwat: (slang, commonly used amidst children and teenagers) a meaningless reply to the question ‘what?’, intended to be used as a friendly joke